| | i've never felt settled into life. school has always been uprooting me to new places. preschool, stewart, lasalle, northside, uiuc... as interesting as it is to meet and click with new people, i just want to be done with college already so i can stop feeling unsettled and fall into a dependable routine with a few friends i can rely on. for someone as unorganized as myself, i need routine and control. it's interesting because i think that need makes me a plain, boring, unadventurous and safe person. i think i'm okay with that. my so-called weirdness makes up for it.
i'm not sure why i have a blog. i hate reading my old entries. they're all quite embarassing really. i tell myself i'll maybe read it 5 years from now but i have yet to read blog entries i wrote in my freshman year of high school (gosh, that's 6.5 years ago!) but then again, almost everything a teenager writes is embarassing and i was no exception. one day it was a "why me!?" rant, the next it was like giddyland. makes me cover my face and shake my head. there was a lot of growing and still plenty more ahead of me. perhaps the entries written in the past year aren't as bad. surely crossing over into the 20s did something to me.
i am 21 and i still love reading grammar school books. so far that's all i've been reading for the past 2 months. when i want to start thinking intellectually again when i read, i'll pick up 1984 where i left off.
bah, i don't like baking but i do it anyways because not being able to do it well bugs me. also, i want to have a signature dish someday, the one dish i am depended on to bring to gatherings and parties. lasagna just takes too long when making it from scratch.
tyrus owned me in the nose this past week. but for the first time in my life it physically feels like i actually have a nose 
if you have time, check out digital kitchen. they're an awesome video design company with major talents.
that's all for this update. elephants hold on to each others' tails when they walk.
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